One step close to the edge, I´m about to break

I am feeling exactly the same way as my best friend, sad, depressed, and sad.... and my head aches!!!!
My head is like a bomb just waiting, and I just have hopless feeling inside of me and all i want is die!
But i cannot die now, I have to watch harry potter´s new movie!!! hehehe
Lately i wrote a letter to my 2 friends telling everything i don´t like about them and maybe i´ve been mean, but sometimes we need to figure out how annoying we are, I know i´m annoying all the time, this is why I am always at my home.....
Sometimes I want to die, but i am not hurting myself anymore.

Wishfull thinking

Why are we always looking for love?
Love to fulfil our hearts, to complete our lives.
Why all of suddenly I get so blind, out of my mind, giving my heart to him?
There´s always a brand new beginning after a heartbreak and the blind hope of a happily ever after.
Suddenly his voice and his name sounds like music to me and love songs makes me cry.
Am I silly or just too needed?
No, maybe after hearing the weeding song saturday I got a little sentimental!