I'm done!

I'm so tired of it all, cause it's always the same.

I can't handle it anymore and it's not the first or the second time I said it.
Lately I've been strong enough to deal with my problems and the criticizes but when they do it because of me with someone I love, it kills me deep inside.

He is the only one who ever understood me in the middle of this mess...

The only thing I want now it to be somewhere else in this world cause I am too tired to keep living this life, I don't want to wait anymore, I don't want to listen to them anymore...

I wish heaven takes me to a place where I only can see the clear water and the green grass and loneliness never sees me again.

Can someone hear me?!

Where is your heart?

I need somebody with a human touch!

No matter what you say it's always the same for me, all your words seems so meaningless and I don't see anything at all besides your empty words, and I swear I'm always trying hard to see through yourself but I can't.

No matter what you say, I need more than words, cause I don't see any interesting inside of you, well I can't see anything inside of you and it kills me cause I need much more, but I know that I have to go out and look in somewhere else for the missing piece.

I'm tired of trying, waiting and wanting...

Jai perdu mes repères
Je nage en eau trouble
Emmène-moi aussi loin que possible
Les paysages défilent et la brume se dissipe
Grâce à toi à nouveau je respire

two thousand and ten expectations!

This is exactly what I have for this new year that stands just in front of me right now. I have to admite that last year was hard, I spent a really long time of meaningless times, trying to find my own peace of mine, but also have had amazing moments of joy and happines with a special guest in my real life.

I was expecting something to chance even if I wasn't believing in it. But at the end of all my unfaithfull journey I found muself into a new life.
Now I see the diference between yesterday and today.

And today is a better day, I can see shinnig light upon the sky, I can see changes ahead and two thousand and ten expectations.