Wishfull Thinking!

I am feeling alone surounded by so many people, I am disconected, I am sad, I am depressed, I am not feeling well. I can fall in love with you cause I am felling so lonely, I can marry you if you really want. I was looking for a river of peace, I am looking for my own, but I am also looking for you!
My heart is in peaces that I gave so many people, and now I don't know who I love the most, I want to go, i want to stay, I want to give up. I don't want to plan, I want to sleep, I just want to live in my own world, the only place I can be me, unperfect, silly, stupi, happy, crier, in love, needing.
My world where I can find myself crying, where i can talk to my own, I can hear my agony, I can hear myself, I can hear the world, I also can stop the world. I want to touch the sky, I want to cry so bad, but i want to be happy.
Do i really need this to be happy? I think I can be happy living in suburb, in a simple house, with an average job, cause I don't need money, I don't want to be rich or famous, I want someone to love till the end. I want a special husband who loves me, to share emotions, to look at me while I am sleeping, to wake me up with a kiss, to make love with me so gentle, to read a book in the bed with me, I want to have kids, I want to go to my mother's in the weekends, I want to travel by train in the summer, I want to fight with my husband and after some time look in his eyes and say "I am sorry" even if I am not wrong and kiss him a movie kiss, I want to take my dog to a walk, I want to cook, I want to send christmas cars, I want to call my husband in his job just to say how much I love him, I want to take my kids in my mother at saturday to go to movies with my man, I want to take kids to the park, I want to write a book, I want to call my friend, I want to take a shower and read a book in bed, I want to help the kids with the homework, I want a simple life, nothing else. I don't need so much money to be happy but all i want is find the happiness and the meaning of my life!