Somethins are better left unsaid.

I feel lonely nowadays, but not lonely like not having friends or people who cares, I am not lonely I just feel the loneliness.
I feel there's something missing inside of me, something I don't know exactly what is.
But somehow this is not a bad thing, cause I appreciate the silence, I like to be alone just to hear what my heart says, to learn more about my own and hear what God has to teach me.
Some people can't appreciate it as it was a good thing, and mostly think it's a sad thing to be all alone in the silence, but I don't understand or agree, I think they have too much to learn as well, but if there's something I don't appreciate is the whole non-sense and emptiness conversations, it's better to be quiet than say something stupid.
Somehow the silence doesn't seems to be able to bring me what I'm missing, so perhaps I should go out and look up for this, even If I turn the risk of founding what I am dying not to find that's when I feel like not leaving my warm walls.
Maybe I should let myself go through the monsoon and wait till what is mine to come to me.