The silence that remains

I'm cold but the room is warmth, Is night and I can't sleep, I'm crying and shaking under my sheets.Although I am feeling my body, the pain and the fear, my soul is knelt right beside my body.I can feel the sorrow, I'm scared, the pain is destroying my spirit.I see ghosts coming in my direction, moving slowly and happily, they stand right next to me, their whisper is cold like a winter breeze, I feel my body shiver and my blood runing fast, my eyes can't stop looking at them, they come right beside my soul and say, die...die...die, I can feel my body shaking, I can feel I'm dying.They are dancing and singing in my honor the death song,
REST IN PEACE.......(they laugh) .....THERE IS NO PEACE SWEETHEART, NEVER MORE!
The verse is repeating in my head over and over again, they laugh loud.My heart is beating fast and my spirit is fading away, I'll die, I know I will.I wonder where will I go when I died.I wonder where...They can hear me, they are looking at me, they stop singing, they are not dancing anymore.I am dying in mercy, mercy of darkness and fear, dying alone, like I've always been.My body is writhed of panic, my heart is drenched in suffering.
They scream DIE ... DIE ... DIE!
My body is struggling to be alive, I can hear the one last breath of my lungs.... The silence break through the walls, I am dead.I am gone, my spirit is gone.They take me by hand and we walk through the darkness, but I still can feel the pain, the pain will never ends, they say.I am still dying inside of my soul but my spirit is gone.Now I am just a soul holding ghosts's hands walking on the dark fields of loneliness.I am fading away through the shadows of misery.
I'm gone.
I'm gone forever!

Lock me in the heart of misery

I don´t wanna feel anything today
Anything at all and just be alone
I don´t wanna live through another day
Meaningless to fight for the victory
I just wanna dive in the heart of misery
I will never be anything again
I´m tired to give, I don´t wanna try
I´m afraid to live, I´m afraid to die
I just wanna fly, throw it all away
Meaningless to fight for your sympathy
One woman forgot to breathe
One heart refused to beat
One love is incomplete

My crimson pain

I don't feel the same I felt before, my world is upside wodn, I can't find my thoughts I left in my golden box.Books don't amuses me, songs makes me cry, endless loneliness, concealed feelings, unspoken words, unrested nights.I hold a star to stop the pain, the sound of your voice to heal the scars, I crawled in front of you to find a place, I can't get what I need, I can't get something worth, I am tired of looking for a better place to be, my road is in peaces.God give me the truth, show me the way, cause I need to know, I am begging, I am crawling, I am bleeding, I am dying.I am losing my sleep, I am losing my dreams, I losing my faith, I´m dying praying, I can't see ahead, I can't see right through, my heart is empty, my soul is fadding and I need some answer.