Wishfull Thinking!

I am feeling alone surounded by so many people, I am disconected, I am sad, I am depressed, I am not feeling well. I can fall in love with you cause I am felling so lonely, I can marry you if you really want. I was looking for a river of peace, I am looking for my own, but I am also looking for you!
My heart is in peaces that I gave so many people, and now I don't know who I love the most, I want to go, i want to stay, I want to give up. I don't want to plan, I want to sleep, I just want to live in my own world, the only place I can be me, unperfect, silly, stupi, happy, crier, in love, needing.
My world where I can find myself crying, where i can talk to my own, I can hear my agony, I can hear myself, I can hear the world, I also can stop the world. I want to touch the sky, I want to cry so bad, but i want to be happy.
Do i really need this to be happy? I think I can be happy living in suburb, in a simple house, with an average job, cause I don't need money, I don't want to be rich or famous, I want someone to love till the end. I want a special husband who loves me, to share emotions, to look at me while I am sleeping, to wake me up with a kiss, to make love with me so gentle, to read a book in the bed with me, I want to have kids, I want to go to my mother's in the weekends, I want to travel by train in the summer, I want to fight with my husband and after some time look in his eyes and say "I am sorry" even if I am not wrong and kiss him a movie kiss, I want to take my dog to a walk, I want to cook, I want to send christmas cars, I want to call my husband in his job just to say how much I love him, I want to take my kids in my mother at saturday to go to movies with my man, I want to take kids to the park, I want to write a book, I want to call my friend, I want to take a shower and read a book in bed, I want to help the kids with the homework, I want a simple life, nothing else. I don't need so much money to be happy but all i want is find the happiness and the meaning of my life!

I want to go back home!

Today I woke up with one only and simple feeling... I want to go back home.
Today is my brother's birthday party and I'd like to be there, not for the party, but to make the cake, to help my mom.... I want to go home so bad!
I want to give up everything and go back, I don't have any motivation, I don't like this place, I am crying eyes out, I don't want to eat, I don't want to go out of this room.
But i know where I want to go and I also know why!

I'm All Alone!

I have one day alone to think about what do I really want, what is important to me, what do I want to do!
I want to listen some music, read a book, or even try!
I don't want to hear anyone, I want to feel the peace through my pours, I want to sleep all I need, I want to dance and speak with myself.
I want to paint my nails, wash my hair and talk to my mom!
I want to wear my favorite clothes, I want to eat junky food, I want to scream I want silence...
But maybe I need more than a simple day, maybe I need a week, a month, why not a year?
I will spend the whole day at home, I will enjoy me, me just me... cause I'm all alone!

I walked a thousand miles to find one river of peace

"I walked a million more to find what this shit means"


Why do we always complicate everything?
Why some people live some feeling with such intensity than other?
I want to help, I want to fix the world, what's the problem in the world?
I want to bring you up here, and I want to take you there, cause I want to see you smile, I want to see you happy!
Can I show you what my life is about?
I have something you need, you have something I am missing!
I have sin in my veins, you are the poison.
Why can't you see me? Show me what do you have underneath your clothes.
I want to take some rest, but I want to travel the world, I close my eyes and I can see your face... I shiver imagining you in here!
I don't want to play the cards, I love your game, touch my hair!
Stop the world I don't want to go anymore
Everybody is changing and I don't feel the same.

I want to fly

I want to fly, but I want you to be with me, I want to share the view with you.
I want to share a crib, I want to share my life with you.
I want to fly, but I want you to be with me, I want you to be with me!

Can you stop this heart?

I don´t to study, I don´t want to hear any story, I don´t want to read any sheet, I don´t want to meet anyone,I don´t want to go anywhere, I don´t want to see any face, I don´t want to smile.
I want a place of mine,
Stop the pressure around me, stop pretend everything is fine.
Stop trying to make me see what I can´t see, stop asking me something I cannot give.
I don´t want to make any plan, I don´t want to talk about issues, I don´t have a pen, I don´t want to make friends.
Stop this heart for me please.
Stop the world, I don´t want to play this fucking stupied game.
Turn off the light, i have nothing to do with this!
Leave me alone!

The lonenly rose!!!

I am surrounded by so many people but i am feeling so lonely.
There´s bit empty space in my heart, but i don´t know what I am missing. My mom? my siblings? my friends? or maybe it´s my life to start. Last year i heard something that make me feel love and happy, but i still have this empty space inside of me!
I wish I could travel away to find what is missing in my heart and feel a less hopeless.
But I´ve learn that we have everything we need, but we are never happy, we aways want something we don´t have and maybe something we don´t even need so much, but just the fact that we don´t have makes us need it.
I wish i could stop complicating my life, and I also wish I was done with looking for something i don´t know what is!