Friday, August 04, 2006

When the phone doesn't ring anymore

I don't feel like talking cause you already know what I have to say.You pretend you don't understand me, but deep inside you know, you gave me all your responsability and now I can't handle it anymore.My words are cold, my look is sad and all I want is to be alone, no more complaning, no more opening my heart for you, I can't see you as I used to, I can't talk to you as I used to and I don't want.I wanted my space, my freedom and to be respected from you, but you stabbed me in the back is this something you enjoy.And if after 22 years you still don't know me, or if I can't make you see how I feel so bad with all the things you've done to me there is no more point of sharing the same ceiling with you at all.I don't feel like smiling or crying with you, I don't feel like sharing thoughts and plans cause you never supported me anyway, I don't feel like staying here anymore.For ten years no you have built a wall between us and now it's finally done, I can't look into your eyes anymore cause I am sick and tired of everything and I all I need is to get out of here.Sometimes I want to scream my lungs out to be noticed, to make you see I hate your disrespect for me but it's meaningless to fight for your sympathy.

1 comment:

Sofia said...

Oh i know that feeling too well. It's sad to have this kind of situation with someone you really love. I'm sure your mother cares but sometimes we can't understand thoughts and mental life of others. Maybe she has her own reasons and points. You should talk with her, though it may feel like useless, it always helps more than just closing your mouth and eyes.
All the best!